late night ramblings

WARNING: This is really just a personal rambling, don't expect to be inspired, or even entertained by this post. ;)

It's been a loooonnnggg time.
It's been a stressful past few months for me. Working two jobs and being a part time student, on top of being a wife and mother, is definitely nothing to sneeze at. I'm glad to be reaching a rest period.

Finals for my classes were last week, and I'm very proud to say that I got A's in both classes I took. Glad for a little breather, although I know next semester will be here before I know it.

I've been working weekends at Dollar Tree, just for some extra "fun" money (all of which has gone to Christmas presents for others haha).  I also have the privelege of teaching dance classes at the local youth center, a once a week gig so far.

Add it all together: The only evening out of the week that I was home for the past 5 months was Monday.

Obviously this created some struggles. I haven't made dinner for my family in months, nor have I really eaten dinner myself. My husband is in no way domestic, so I don't even want to know what he and our daughter have been eating every night. Things that I used to love to do got pushed to the side. I haven't been practicing yoga and, I can't believe I'm admitting this, but I killed my worms.  I totally forgot about them, they were untended for an extended period, the bin dried out and well....RIP.

I've also been having sleep issues. This all started several months ago, at the end of the summer really. I've been having the dardnest time staying awake during the day. If I'm actively stimulated I'm fine, but if I sit down to watch TV, try to read, study, or have any down time at all I knock out. It's quick, and I don't see it coming. It's even started to affect me while driving if I'm going more than 20 minutes away. Thankfully Aliyah hasn't been in the car with me at those points, and I've caught myself before I actually drifted off, but obviously that is a pretty major concern. Talked to the doc on Friday about it.

On top of the daytime drowsiness I've started to have issues staying asleep. That started a while ago, I would just wake up, lay in bed for a bit, then finally go back to sleep. Now I've been having Restless Leg Syndrome at night, and rather than toss and turn and wake up hubby I've just been coming down to the computer (you can thank RLS for tonight's post).

I've been tested for anemia, diabetes, and thyroid issues a few times now. I'm not pregnant, and although I have a history of depression I've been on a steady dose of antidepressants since the spring.

Semi-diagnosis: sleep apnea. Not anything I expected, but okay. Stress can be a major compenant of sleep apnea, and I've had bushels of stress hanging around :). So I quit Dollar Tree, this coming weekend is my last. It isn't a priority, so it was an easy decision. Hopefully having my weekends back with help with this whole mess, plus I really miss my family haha.

For the next month or so I'm supposed to log my sleep issues and, yup, tonight is already jotted down. I will probably be doing a sleep study sometime next month. Oh joy. Then I don't know what will happen from there. Hopefully this goes away on it's own...

In the meantime I will relish this down period. I am ready for the holidays, for a TEENSY bit of snow, some hot chocolate, and time with family and friends.

I think my legs have calmed down a bit, I'll give sleep another shot.

Sweet Dreams,
Barbie